My birthday is coming!!! D:

Hello everyone! How are you? I hope you’re better than me. The fact is that I’m really depressed and a little bit nervous because my birthday is in two weeks and I don’t want to! I have never liked birthdays, or thinking about me being older and older everytime.

I’ll be 20 years old and, for me, it’s so tragic. It’s so different to say I’m 19, than saying: I’m 20. It’s like, when you’re 20 there’s no turning back, but when you’re 19 it’s like: “hum... okay still young”.

What a tragedy.



Well, the only way it could be better is (obviously) having a great party. But I don’t think I’ll do something, because I don’t like to be host of parties. It’s too much responsability and, as you may predict, I hate responsabilities. I would love to turn the time into past and be a child again.

Anyways, I was talking with some friends and I was thinking about celebrate my birthday at “los pastos” of the university, so you, who’s reading this... celebrate with me my 20 years old birthday :D

Well... thinking coldly, maybe birthdays aren’t so horrible... I always look at my mom in her birthdays and she's so happy all the time, is so nice... I wonder why I hate birthdays so much.

I guess I think like this, because I have this “forever young” thought and it makes me hate everything closer to “old age”. I don’t want to be an adult and have responsabilities, but I think that’s something really immature too, and I have to overcome it.

Also, I don’t like birthdays because I feel like I haven’t done anything for me and my life and that makes me really sad, I think that study isn’t really relevant, I would like to have a “life plan”, goals to effort for and dreams to make true.

Maybe this date is here for something important, and it’s to make me open my eyes and say: okay, stop wasting your time.

As a very good song from The Strokes would say: "It's your free time to free minds or for falling apart?"

I'll think about that haha

Love and Peace to everyone, see you soon! :D